"...every waking day, you take my breath away...with every word you say, you take my breath away..."

I dunno if your familiar with Emma Bunton's (yah, BABY SPICE!) single.. I've used to know this song since I was in high school yet I really didn't have any idea before, on who was the songster behind it..and thank God, through my friends JONI and PENNY, nalaman ko na rin!

just recently, I was hooked to it and I couldn't resist listening to Emma's sweet yet husky voice!

whoah.

anyway, t'was just an intro.

hmmm.. yesterday was our dorm's year-ender party. as expected, tears of sadness and joy are apparent to most of my dorm mates' eyes..yah, I shed a few tears but I didn't bawl like crazy like what the others did.. I don't wanna look pathetic during that night.

Moreover, I was freakin' tired making those pesky certificates. I was given the award "AWARDS QUEEN AWARD".. and yeah, it's already self-explanatory.


of course, we had a disco after the program. (as usual!) one thing Balay Kanlaon had taught me is to party or disco.. at least, my dancing prowess was honed up.. however, that was the my shortest dancing span among the 5 BK disco moments.

Around 2:30, I went back to my room cause I wasn't really enjoying the party.. I was already damn worn-out and I badly need some shut eye... so off I went to bed and sobbed a little before definitely heading off to dreamland.. (don't ask me why I was whimpering..the reason's badly feeble...)

Well, I wanna share to you what happened last Thursday. After our final exams (Garbage-picking sa OWL and I was one of the student's who had the most number of the gathered trashes) for our Envi.Sci. we headed to OMP's Corner for our teacher, Mr. KHP's gonna treat us..

I sang about 8 songs! Credits to those "magnanimous balikbayans." Speaking of them, since these people were enetertained by the singing performances of everybody, they gave us lots of 5-peso coins for the videoke machine so that we could continue singing our hearts out.. And of course, that made us sing a number of times.

then, they gave out 2 cases of RH beer to my classmates and schoolmates.Geez. just because they were delighted with our talents, they gave out those thingies! Extravagant I must say! Lucky you OMPS, you earned a lot! ;]

THANK GOD, I DON'T DRINK ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES!

For the 1st tym, I was in the company of people who are in the realm of drunkenness! (FYI, half of us were drunk!)

It was scary and funny at the same time. Lots of them were unconscious and they were acting strangely and saying zany things.. (go Penny and Maicah!)

and while we're walking our way to the dormitory, FATHER swept all the heaven's out of me for he pulled a prank on us. He hide on some of the bushes then jolted out of the blue.. Since I was the person nearest to him, I was the one who was really in panic.. I felt like crying and I was blurting out the word "Y*TI!" all the way..

It was indeed a long night.. at least, after the skull-cracking exams we decided to have a bit of fun! March 26, 2009 is totally memorable amd so cool. I've got to see my crush who's Psych major. I mean OUR (insert Penny and Maicah's names here) crush! he's uber cute. hihi.

oh yeah, I'll end up here. ciao! ;]

*I'LL MISS BK and my "dancefloor" king! hehe.

I guess it's already more than a week since this person said a quick "Hi!" to me.

Been more than a week since this somebody gave me a warm smile.

And it's been more than a week since this creature sent me amusing text messages.

Well yes, I miss those mere bits of gestures.

What I just want to convey in this post is that I can sense this person's aloofness towards me. I was simply unaccustomed to it. I mean, what's the problem with him? I ain't clarified with the factors which indeed affect the way he dealt with me.

It's like "Hello, can't you see I'm here?"

We're definitely good friends you know and all of a sudden this earthling is keeping his distance. Why in the flames? It seems that we were never buddies at all.

I dunno. I'll just give a shot on approaching this person first. Maybe because this individual had sensed my wariness towards him. My bad I guess. *big sigh! :[

WOW!

How funny, after more or less two years, I felt that rare ache again.

Oh God, the mere scene I saw created a huge impact to me. I simply don't know why in the heavens I've felt that way wherein there's no definite basis why I have to put a big deal to that one.

I can't really relay the whole thing in this post for you know, maybe somebody might gonna read it and associate him/herself. I'd rather play safe now.

But I admit, it was the first twinge that terribly bruised me regarding crush matters. I never did that in my past years.The last twinge I felt was with my first break-up. But this is way too different I must say. I' m always cool when it comes to those situations. Hell, this is not the "firm" Darlene Mher anymore.

This is not jealousy I'm telling you. But I just can't explain why I was damn bitter with the episode I've perceived.

I guess, I was just expecting too much. Talking about false hopes and all.

This isn't me anymore. I don't accept expectations when it comes to those matters, swear.

No. Never. This can't be happening.

I'm acting like a paranoid and obtuse b*atch. whatever.

I must be the OLD me.

*tears.