Budging Out the Comfort Zone
Friday, July 18, 2008
“Take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway…”
I could simply discern that this line from Kelly Clarkson’s hit Breakaway is not anymore greek to your ears. In line with that, this song definitely means a lot to me for it served as my wake-up call yet in a reflective sense.
I’m the type of person who’s totally terrified of taking life’s countless risks. Otherwise, I decisively loathe the word “change”. Thus, I can say that I acquire the conventional sort of nature. I just merely love the thought of sticking to the things that I usually do and carrying them out into precision.
Looking down the memory lane, I could still summon up that one of my targets in life is to pass the UPCAT exams and to enter the portals of the newly acclaimed Philippines' National University .Fortunately, I did make it as one of UP Miag-ao’s centennial babies! However, the jovial feeling I had was churned up with woes and hesitation for the certain fact that Iloilo was miles and miles away from my home in Agusan del Sur. That conveys being far away from my family and the place where my heart absolutely fits in.
Still, my pursuit to spend the rest of my life in UP for four years or even more had prevailed. Well, I basically got no other option but to stay in one of the school’s dormitories, Balay Kanlaon. Thus it naturally conveys one absolute thing; I had to start from scratch.
I’ve mentioned that I so hate changes, so at first it was unquestionably hard for me to adjust to the various vicissitudes of dorm life. First and foremost, I couldn’t visualize that I’ll be doing the chores which I do not habitually execute. Washing clothes is the best example I must say. It was not as simple as munching a piece of cake. I don’t have our helpers with me anymore who personally perform the laundry. Frankly speaking, I still dread that fact until now!
Things aren’t that A-OK! I have to do the two B’s, the “buy and budget” thingy! Truly, buying the necessary things and budgeting the allowance given is a slight agony for me. For the first few days, I was really at my wit’s end; I uncontrollably splurged a big amount of money and extravagantly purchased needless stuffs. After a week, I eventually freaked out since I only got a small amount of money left in my wallet! I admit that was terrifyingly ridiculous! Working the two B’s out has never been in my brain since my mom was the one who’s buying the needed items as well as budgeting our daily expenses back home.
On the other hand, “It’s the start of something new,” I exclaimed to myself the moment I was surrounded by unfamiliar persons: my co-dormers. Unsurprisingly, I’m an aloof gal yet I am not a snob! I don’t always have that cheerful “hi and hello” with me. It’s just that, I’m jolted by the reality of socializing which is a must for a college student particularly for freshies like me. I’m exceedingly afraid to take risks and try the huge leaps of faith with regards to making the first move; I’m scared of the word “rejection”. Actually, I want to break the ice and be friendly, yet fear and anxiety are irrefutably swallowing me whole. As a result, it seemed that I felt like missing my old set of friends.
Contrary to all those musings I have regarding the hustle and bustle of the newest chapter in my life, I just muttered to myself, “College may be isn’t all about pressures and dilemmas, how about looking at it’s other side?” Looking at the bright part of college, I supposed that something’s better is in store for me. It’s my freedom!
Gradually, I am currently savoring my first taste of the newfound freedom that I’m currently experiencing. At last nobody’s in control of me! Conversely, I still know my limits, of course. Now, I’m starting to discover life’s naturalness and the splendor of the so-called independence.
College life showed me a plethora of lessons too. I have arrived to the realization that college isn’t only about a vast amount of stress, but also responsibility is cultured within us. In order to not get behind in certain lessons and works, we have to be efficient. We have to ascertain how to manage our time wisely, consequently providing adequate time to finish our home works and extra time to complete demanding and leisure activities.
Furthermore, the best moral that I have attained at this point in time is to skip out from my own comfort zone and to explore life’s brand new boulevards. This is the real life; this is the perfect timing to step out from the shell that encapsulated me over the years.
I am anxious no more of taking the risks! I’ll embrace them as much as I can and find out what lies behind them. I will now thrust myself into a realm of anonymity which entails better and maybe the best opportunities for myself, I suppose. Moreover, I will now welcome mistakes with arms wide open for it will bring me inevitable experiences that are vital to the creation of a healthier and enhanced me.
So far, I am extremely happy as of now! I’ve obtained many, many friends from diverse parts of the archipelago. I’m progressively straying away from the apprehension that I’ve used to believe during those first set of days. Furthermore, I am not a wallflower anymore. I’ll take the probabilities of being in the spotlight and unearth my hidden skills and talents which will serve as my stairs to triumph.
Now I understand life has indeed a range of beautiful possibilities in every corner. All you have to do is to be like the butterfly that will come out of its chrysalis and explore the outside world. Without a doubt, I took the risk, I took the chance, I made a change and most importantly I’m breaking away! #
I could simply discern that this line from Kelly Clarkson’s hit Breakaway is not anymore greek to your ears. In line with that, this song definitely means a lot to me for it served as my wake-up call yet in a reflective sense.
I’m the type of person who’s totally terrified of taking life’s countless risks. Otherwise, I decisively loathe the word “change”. Thus, I can say that I acquire the conventional sort of nature. I just merely love the thought of sticking to the things that I usually do and carrying them out into precision.
Looking down the memory lane, I could still summon up that one of my targets in life is to pass the UPCAT exams and to enter the portals of the newly acclaimed Philippines' National University .Fortunately, I did make it as one of UP Miag-ao’s centennial babies! However, the jovial feeling I had was churned up with woes and hesitation for the certain fact that Iloilo was miles and miles away from my home in Agusan del Sur. That conveys being far away from my family and the place where my heart absolutely fits in.
Still, my pursuit to spend the rest of my life in UP for four years or even more had prevailed. Well, I basically got no other option but to stay in one of the school’s dormitories, Balay Kanlaon. Thus it naturally conveys one absolute thing; I had to start from scratch.
I’ve mentioned that I so hate changes, so at first it was unquestionably hard for me to adjust to the various vicissitudes of dorm life. First and foremost, I couldn’t visualize that I’ll be doing the chores which I do not habitually execute. Washing clothes is the best example I must say. It was not as simple as munching a piece of cake. I don’t have our helpers with me anymore who personally perform the laundry. Frankly speaking, I still dread that fact until now!
Things aren’t that A-OK! I have to do the two B’s, the “buy and budget” thingy! Truly, buying the necessary things and budgeting the allowance given is a slight agony for me. For the first few days, I was really at my wit’s end; I uncontrollably splurged a big amount of money and extravagantly purchased needless stuffs. After a week, I eventually freaked out since I only got a small amount of money left in my wallet! I admit that was terrifyingly ridiculous! Working the two B’s out has never been in my brain since my mom was the one who’s buying the needed items as well as budgeting our daily expenses back home.
On the other hand, “It’s the start of something new,” I exclaimed to myself the moment I was surrounded by unfamiliar persons: my co-dormers. Unsurprisingly, I’m an aloof gal yet I am not a snob! I don’t always have that cheerful “hi and hello” with me. It’s just that, I’m jolted by the reality of socializing which is a must for a college student particularly for freshies like me. I’m exceedingly afraid to take risks and try the huge leaps of faith with regards to making the first move; I’m scared of the word “rejection”. Actually, I want to break the ice and be friendly, yet fear and anxiety are irrefutably swallowing me whole. As a result, it seemed that I felt like missing my old set of friends.
Contrary to all those musings I have regarding the hustle and bustle of the newest chapter in my life, I just muttered to myself, “College may be isn’t all about pressures and dilemmas, how about looking at it’s other side?” Looking at the bright part of college, I supposed that something’s better is in store for me. It’s my freedom!
Gradually, I am currently savoring my first taste of the newfound freedom that I’m currently experiencing. At last nobody’s in control of me! Conversely, I still know my limits, of course. Now, I’m starting to discover life’s naturalness and the splendor of the so-called independence.
College life showed me a plethora of lessons too. I have arrived to the realization that college isn’t only about a vast amount of stress, but also responsibility is cultured within us. In order to not get behind in certain lessons and works, we have to be efficient. We have to ascertain how to manage our time wisely, consequently providing adequate time to finish our home works and extra time to complete demanding and leisure activities.
Furthermore, the best moral that I have attained at this point in time is to skip out from my own comfort zone and to explore life’s brand new boulevards. This is the real life; this is the perfect timing to step out from the shell that encapsulated me over the years.
I am anxious no more of taking the risks! I’ll embrace them as much as I can and find out what lies behind them. I will now thrust myself into a realm of anonymity which entails better and maybe the best opportunities for myself, I suppose. Moreover, I will now welcome mistakes with arms wide open for it will bring me inevitable experiences that are vital to the creation of a healthier and enhanced me.
So far, I am extremely happy as of now! I’ve obtained many, many friends from diverse parts of the archipelago. I’m progressively straying away from the apprehension that I’ve used to believe during those first set of days. Furthermore, I am not a wallflower anymore. I’ll take the probabilities of being in the spotlight and unearth my hidden skills and talents which will serve as my stairs to triumph.
Now I understand life has indeed a range of beautiful possibilities in every corner. All you have to do is to be like the butterfly that will come out of its chrysalis and explore the outside world. Without a doubt, I took the risk, I took the chance, I made a change and most importantly I’m breaking away! #
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