PRECISELY UNPRECISED: My Life's Perplexing Colors

TAKE MY BREATH AWAY ;]

2009-03-27T22:27:00.000-07:00

"...every waking day, you take my breath away...with every word you say, you take my breath away..."

I dunno if your familiar with Emma Bunton's (yah, BABY SPICE!) single.. I've used to know this song since I was in high school yet I really didn't have any idea before, on who was the songster behind it..and thank God, through my friends JONI and PENNY, nalaman ko na rin!

just recently, I was hooked to it and I couldn't resist listening to Emma's sweet yet husky voice!

whoah.

anyway, t'was just an intro.

hmmm.. yesterday was our dorm's year-ender party. as expected, tears of sadness and joy are apparent to most of my dorm mates' eyes..yah, I shed a few tears but I didn't bawl like crazy like what the others did.. I don't wanna look pathetic during that night.

Moreover, I was freakin' tired making those pesky certificates. I was given the award "AWARDS QUEEN AWARD".. and yeah, it's already self-explanatory.

of course, we had a disco after the program. (as usual!) one thing Balay Kanlaon had taught me is to party or disco.. at least, my dancing prowess was honed up.. however, that was the my shortest dancing span among the 5 BK disco moments.

Around 2:30, I went back to my room cause I wasn't really enjoying the party.. I was already damn worn-out and I badly need some shut eye... so off I went to bed and sobbed a little before definitely heading off to dreamland.. (don't ask me why I was whimpering..the reason's badly feeble...)

Well, I wanna share to you what happened last Thursday. After our final exams (Garbage-picking sa OWL and I was one of the student's who had the most number of the gathered trashes) for our Envi.Sci. we headed to OMP's Corner for our teacher, Mr. KHP's gonna treat us..

I sang about 8 songs! Credits to those "magnanimous balikbayans." Speaking of them, since these people were enetertained by the singing performances of everybody, they gave us lots of 5-peso coins for the videoke machine so that we could continue singing our hearts out.. And of course, that made us sing a number of times.

then, they gave out 2 cases of RH beer to my classmates and schoolmates.Geez. just because they were delighted with our talents, they gave out those thingies! Extravagant I must say! Lucky you OMPS, you earned a lot! ;]

THANK GOD, I DON'T DRINK ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES!

For the 1st tym, I was in the company of people who are in the realm of drunkenness! (FYI, half of us were drunk!)

It was scary and funny at the same time. Lots of them were unconscious and they were acting strangely and saying zany things.. (go Penny and Maicah!)

and while we're walking our way to the dormitory, FATHER swept all the heaven's out of me for he pulled a prank on us. He hide on some of the bushes then jolted out of the blue.. Since I was the person nearest to him, I was the one who was really in panic.. I felt like crying and I was blurting out the word "Y*TI!" all the way..

It was indeed a long night.. at least, after the skull-cracking exams we decided to have a bit of fun! March 26, 2009 is totally memorable amd so cool. I've got to see my crush who's Psych major. I mean OUR (insert Penny and Maicah's names here) crush! he's uber cute. hihi.

oh yeah, I'll end up here. ciao! ;]

*I'LL MISS BK and my "dancefloor" king! hehe.

COLDNESS and DISTANCE ;[

2009-03-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

I guess it's already more than a week since this person said a quick "Hi!" to me.

Been more than a week since this somebody gave me a warm smile.

And it's been more than a week since this creature sent me amusing text messages.

Well yes, I miss those mere bits of gestures.

What I just want to convey in this post is that I can sense this person's aloofness towards me. I was simply unaccustomed to it. I mean, what's the problem with him? I ain't clarified with the factors which indeed affect the way he dealt with me.

It's like "Hello, can't you see I'm here?"

We're definitely good friends you know and all of a sudden this earthling is keeping his distance. Why in the flames? It seems that we were never buddies at all.

I dunno. I'll just give a shot on approaching this person first. Maybe because this individual had sensed my wariness towards him. My bad I guess. *big sigh! :[

THE TWINGE ;[

2009-03-06T15:09:00.000-08:00

WOW!

How funny, after more or less two years, I felt that rare ache again.

Oh God, the mere scene I saw created a huge impact to me. I simply don't know why in the heavens I've felt that way wherein there's no definite basis why I have to put a big deal to that one.

I can't really relay the whole thing in this post for you know, maybe somebody might gonna read it and associate him/herself. I'd rather play safe now.

But I admit, it was the first twinge that terribly bruised me regarding crush matters. I never did that in my past years.The last twinge I felt was with my first break-up. But this is way too different I must say. I' m always cool when it comes to those situations. Hell, this is not the "firm" Darlene Mher anymore.

This is not jealousy I'm telling you. But I just can't explain why I was damn bitter with the episode I've perceived.

I guess, I was just expecting too much. Talking about false hopes and all.

This isn't me anymore. I don't accept expectations when it comes to those matters, swear.

No. Never. This can't be happening.

I'm acting like a paranoid and obtuse b*atch. whatever.

I must be the OLD me.

*tears.

NEWBIE

2009-02-21T17:32:00.000-08:00

I AM A MULTIPLY NEWBIE! ;]

Actually, I had an older account however I can't log in since I failed to recall the user ID. Password? Well, mine's a universal one so it will be carved in my hypothalamus eternally.

This will be a very short post for I am bombarded by 3 long exams, a major speech and House Council jobs. I'll end up here. ^-^

CIAO! ;)

BEREAVING

2009-02-14T00:56:00.000-08:00

Hearts. Hearts. Hearts.

Oh well, Valentines is circulating in the Earth's stratum this day and basically I "LOATHE" it. Yes I know you'll be asking why in the flames I despise it.

Foremost, the idea of Valentines Day is uhmm... call it crazy!

Look, couples make this day extra-special. Why not make it more exceptional in just an ordinary day? I guess it would have a better impact if things go unpredictable. Right?

Plus, it's an eyesore seeing lots and lots of lovers making petty things. Waah. Regarding that,well, we will go to the town's park and try to count how many couples are there. haha. Bad. Uhm, wrong term. I prefer the word MEAN.

ANYWAY, Valentines is just an ordinary day for me. For 17 years of existence, the occasion's being monotonous. Too predictable.

Okey let's switch to another topic.

I am now recuperating from STRESS. (include depression here)

As a HOUSE COUNCIL officer in my beloved dormitory, well I'm carrying a heavy boulder in my head compared to an ordinary dormer. Thank God, I've made it. Plus my patience was being lengthened.

We had a 4-day set of activities. Take note of the number FOUR. Indeed, it was too nerve-wracking. Things are getting so demanding as the next days went by. I got LESSER number of hours on sleep. My zits are getting larger and voluminous. Wah. Plus round circles and eye bags are now apparent. In short, I look HAGGARD.

Plus, I was disappointed by yesterday's affair. Nah, the prom wasn't that satisfying compared to other dorm activities. Last minute preparations. But yeah, I was still glad since my crush was strutting himself on the dance floor. Dance addict? Wah I dunno, ask him. Perhaps! I just said to myself, "Sh*t, why is he like that? Ka-cute gid sa iya ah!" Harhar. Smiling mode!

Then, I was expecting something to happen at the same night. And as the usual, I was thwarted by my stupid anticipation. Oh duh, stop. I dont want to refresh last night's occurrence.

Damn, I also realized that I'm not good at spelling words anymore. poor me. Thanks to the auto correction. I misspelled 3 words in this post. (I misspelled the word "misspelled".. haha. I thought it's "mispelled". Blah.

Oohh. Ciao for now.

I ABSOLUTELY DON'T NEED VALENTINES DAY! PROMISE! ;]

COMEBACK

2009-01-06T22:18:00.000-08:00

After two long months, I'm back in the business once more. Well literally, I'm back to school as well. Hurrah! Or is it really worth cheering for?

Anyhoo, horrid as I may think, I was totally bombarded with a wide range of duties. I mean, not only me but almost all UP students. This isn't a new thing anyway, I'm used to this.

Right now, I'm a bit panicky for I will have my CMS100 report together with Debbie. Actually, I'm not that ready. Everytym our professor's name appears in my mind,I got this shivers. I couldn't deny it but I'm somehow getting paranoid at this time. I'm dreading this thing all the way since Christmas vacation. I'll just keep my fingers crossed that my wits will not be squeezed tomorrow. Or else, I'll be more paranoid than ever.

Another thing that's been bothering me this second sem is our History 2 exams. Upperclassmen and fellow freshmen who undergone this teacher are giving me the threats. Aside from the fact that she loves to call people during oral recitations, she adores to give five's and four's to her students. Plus, her exams are more than brain bleed. You know, the unusual nosebleed examinations. I guess this will be another Soc. Sci 10.

At this point, I was planning to shift to BS BIO. I just don't know if I'll be making the right plan. I need your opinions. whew. So long. :(

AN ESSAY FOR VINCH

2008-10-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

MY CHEMICAL METAPHOR

Two moles of Fluorine gas combusted with four moles of Hydrogen gas combined with three atomic units of Carbon reduced by three grams Helium gas plus four millimeters of Iron metal in Chlorine solution oxidized by five molecules of Oxygen gas yields a super reactive heavy saturated solution that encompass the existence of an individual branded as Juvinch Regatona Vicente.

Having an atomic number and atomic weight of one, hydrogen is being likened to my personality. Like this element, I consider myself as a simple being who is breathing in this very eclectic globe. Certain instances happen when I feel light and calm yet when my co-elements annoy me, in turn I can’t hold my boiling point. Thus I burst and ignite the flame hiding in my nucleus. In order to subside this temper, I’m also like Oxygen which is an aide for the vitality of humans because I extend my hands to those who are in need. I never hesitate to help my friends for us to have a stable relationship.

Now, let us take a glance on myself as a member of the Vicente family. Well, I could simply associate myself to Carbon for I’m a composition of a stable family. As the only guy among the four siblings, I personally believe that I carry an enormous load on top of my shoulders otherwise I perform a great responsibility in keeping my family firm. Through my family, I’ve learned to be like Chlorine regarding the faith I have for Him. Frankly, our connection is merely wavering thus I’m spiritually unstable.

Love is a compound composed of two elements sharing a single orbital which are of diverse properties. The most reactive element is Fluorine which I equate with the kind of lover in me. I have once being strongly bonded to my co-element; however the attachment between us was interrupted by varied factors and was ended distressingly. As of now, I have a fluctuating emotion when it comes to it making me more like a rusted iron. Contrary to that, I’m waiting for a sacrificial anode that will tarnish the ache brought by the past.

Summing it all up, life is exactly a compound. Different interacting elements compose our individuality. Day by day, we undergo several reactions that will contribute in the betterment of our personalities. As for me, I had and will have numerous experiences that will make me a better compound. This is my life – MY CHEMICAL METAPHOR.

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It was simply a big wow for me! For less than an hour, through the combined forces of Lalaish, I and Juvinch, we finally made the latter's essay which is at whilst his final exam. The odd thing was, we were Laish and I were late for our CMS class---20 minutes. Heck! Thank goodness, Maam Vargas is as nice as heaven. It was really our first time being late in our major subject.

Anyway, I just confirmed my CRS as a pre-enlistment for my subjects for the 2nd Sem. Wow, I was forced to take Soc.Sci.1 for I was waitlisted in Psych10 and it's almost equivalent to the word impossible if I would be able to grasp the subject. (#17) sigh! Plus, I have 5 subjects on Mondays and Thursdays. Weep! How would I be able to balance my time? I'm lethargic! See, God simply wants me to do the opposite act. Oh no! I'm somehow doomed.

Another thing, I'm currently doing my essays as 50% of our final exams. I've finished two already. At least, sven more to go!

Ohyeehah, this is my first post as a 17-year-old. ugh. kaurugot gid sang age koh. nwei, ciao!

*dada*

ADIEU SWEET SIXTEEN! :(

2008-09-19T07:11:00.000-07:00

As I am typing this post, well I simply feel the teary-eyed sensation. For all of you to know, this will be my last day as a 16-year-old kiddo. I'm now counting the minutes and im rather feeling somehow sick of frustration and fear. Uugghhh. I have this very bizarre feeling. I merely couldn't explain.

But anyway, its been more than a month since my last post. Let me convey you first the best happenings here in UP. (My own opinion of course!)

*we won the cheering competition. Oh, I love my SKIMMERS family. I guess I wont be leaving them. Go Purple Skimmers Kung-fu Fighters!

*I surpassed all the PRELIM exams. NO bagsak. Yet I acquired uhm, mediocre marks. except for Math 1 and Comm1. Figure it out okie?

*we won 6th place in the AMAZING RACE. a record for the skimmers! I joined it! Loud and proud.

*Skimmers conquered Hinugyaw. That's never been a query anymore.

*20/20 for all my COMM1 essays. I adore Comm1. I adore Mr. K. Piamonte.

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Uhm, those were the happenings that ticked my mind.

Haayz, I'm turning seventeen tomorrow and I greatly despise it. I mean, I dont wanna budge out from my age. Know what, how I wish Im still 14 and be 14 forever. HOw stupid I a dont you think?

Maybe I'll just continue this post tomorrow.

I barely have time to update this bloggathing.

+dada+

You Call It AMAZING!

2008-07-24T15:45:00.000-07:00

July 24, 2008 is identical to the word AMAZING!

Confounded? Well, Yesterday was simply the Inter-college Pasundayag and Debate Competitions held in the UP-V Campus, Iloilo City. And of course, I witnessed a variety of astounding episodes there. Let’s take it step by step.

Yesterday morning we were so dismayed since we didn’t make it to the UPV bus so in turn we just traveled the one-hour trip via jeepney. (What else? CERES?) Hmmm, It was a bad hair moment for us Kanlaonians coz Mr. Wind was so brutal. In the jam-packed city, Kabz Jessa, Donnie, Pangs and I went on to SM city for we have to purchase necessary things. In line with that, I really have to buy a bedsheet and I as well decided to let my hair be chopped off.

Regarding the former, Kabz accompanied mi to Freshaire Salon. (Thanks to the stylist for the new-fangled look! Mind you, she’s so nice and I didn’t feel awkward upon approaching her.) I’ve a got a whole new hairstyle. I got this side-swept bangs thingy and my hair’s shoulder length. Whoo! I think it’s good and the style fits me. I was showered with compliments by numerous people. Salamat! (I'll post pics soon, don't worry.)

Okie, right then we proceeded to the UPV City campus for there was an inter-college debate. Actually, we’ve only viewed the “championship” match between the College of Arts and Sciences (Go CAS!) and the College of Management. The debate was OUTRAGEOUSLY AWESOME. Gawd! I love these candid lines from Ate Rachelle who was hailed as the Best Debater, “Please sit down! I said, please sit down!” and “It’s so preposterous!” haha.

Aside from that, the Best Speaker award was given to Kuya Michael. (Whoah! He’s astoundingly CUTE! Hehe.) FYI, the two of them are from CAS. Haha. Hmm, I guess the topic of the debate was about legalizing euthanasia. Hmm, sorry, I just arrived in the middle of the bout thus I didn’t have the whole knowledge regarding it. And well, who reigned? Unquestionably, it’s the CAS. Haha. Support your own. They crumpled the city’s CM like pieces of filthy paper. Haha.Poor them. Our debaters are simply, FIRST-CLASS.

After that was our most awaited part, the Pasundayag. Let me explain to you what pasundayag is, uhm it's a contest among the colleges wherein the performers are the TEACHERS and the STAFFS and not the students. It was totally ASTIG! I saw two of my teachers namely Mr. Casimero and Mr. Camua who were doing their stuffs. (They were dancing like the Coverboys! Nyahaha.) I adore all the performers' costume too!. Well-prepared! There were fairies, rockers, nostalgic people and the like. But indeed, one of the highlights of the show was the Chancellor who portrayed Mr. Oble. (dancing Oble!). He's terribly FUNNY!

The show was really awesome. The four competing teams are so extreme and hindi talaga papipigil. They strut their things well. It was definitely worth watching. I couldn't resist laughing yesterday. Imagine, the deans and the chancellor and even the faculty did those thingamajigs only to bring exuberance to the audience? It seemed they were shedding off their dignity somehow. haha. I just love their spectacular performances. (A round of applause for them!)

So far, again, the CAS won! Whoohoohoo. (Does it imply that the CAS people are naturally multi-talented? hehe.) Cheers! A whooping 20,000php for the staffs and teachers. Hehe. They certainly deserved it. The show ended and we ran as fast as we could so that we could avail the bus. Ssshhh. Honestly, we were on the end of the line but thank God, pina-SINGIT kami. Well, daming friends eh. Hehe. Yehey, I saved 40php. (Isang meal na yun! Hihi.)

9:50pm and we're already back in the dorm. I was pooped out so I slept a bit earlier last nyt at 1am. Haha. (I used to sleep at 2am. Hehe. Til here. I was KILIG yesterday. Basta. Muah. Hearts2x!

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Painting the Street Violet

2008-07-23T04:36:00.000-07:00

"THIS DAY'S PIC"

Goodness! My monthly visitor is here once more. Thank GOD it didn’t caused me much twinge or else I’ll be throbbing with pain the whole day. Okie, this is just an intro, a dense one, har3x. Churva galore! (My latest expression which I acquired from our P.E teacher Mr. Rogador. Hihi. Green-blooded. Ssshhh. )

Hmm, Kabs Jessa, Ate Jam, Pangkin Laish and I moved our feet to the University’s covered court. Larong Pinoy was held. Fun was indeed around the corner. About 10am, I went to the campus with Pangkin to withdraw some moolah in Landbank. Hihi. (Endorse2x! Landbank, pay me bucks! Nyahaha.) While I was busy falling in line, never did I expect that Pangkin was already painting in the SKIMMERS (my acad. Org) block.

In turn, my curiosity aroused and I intolerably couldn’t help myself. That’s why I immediately joined the street painting. I was as well concerned since there are only 4 of them painting for the Skimmers namely Laish, Romelaine, Kuya Arvin and Goddess John Rey. Honestly, I will never deny the fact that I was at first hesitant and uncertain since I’ll be grimy and dirty then, nevertheless my good side simply took place. Owwwss.

Well, I did have amusement at that time. I was mixing colors such as red and blue in order for me to arrive at such perfect combination. Thus, I had the ideal VIOLET shade. For you to know, Violet is the official color of the Skimmers Org. Moreover, it was a whole lot complicated than I’ve ever thought but thank God I just did it by myself. It was all worth the sweat guys, I’m telling yah!

After finishing my part, I went back to the dorm straight away. I was completely in a hurry for I wanna PEE. Haha. I left the whole thing unfinished for I know Kuya Arvin and the rest will complete it. LOL.

Afternoon came and I went back to the CAS. I roamed from the first block to the last. I was amazed by the PH Pub’s work. So nice. I love the Gold Oble. (Oblation) Right then, I noticed our org’s block, it was okay. Hehe. Good, in fact. I felt pleased and fulfilled about the thing for I became a part of it. At least, I could perceive my work almost everyday while pacing on the pathway.

Well, this day’s so nice. SO satisfying! Muah. :]]

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When Tedium Sprouts

2008-07-21T22:32:00.000-07:00

This is another day of monotony for me which is absolutely contrary to the verity that the people here in UP Ilo2 is currently executing the merrymaking thingy. For info's sake, the university is presently celebrating its foundation WEEK. Hmmm.. Thus, conveys one supreme fact, NO CLASSES! I can now have my much awaited REST. har3x. Okie fellas give me five loud CLAPS! Thanks!. Okie, so much for that. But wait; let me tell you first the occurrences in the morning.

Unfortunately, we had our Math 1 class with our very own Mr. Faina. Well along, he let us view the continuation of the film entitled "CONTACT" in w/c you'll gonna discern that Math was used as a LANGUAGE. Yeah right! Propitiously, our teacher didn't give us a quiz since he informed us last Friday that we'll have one today. Buti na lang since I haven't studied the lesson comprehensively.

Moving forward, I went back to our dorm. Then I was greeted by Kabz with a saccharine smile. Then on the scene as well were Diody and Doni. Actually, they were seriously debating on an issue regarding the equality and inequality of men and women. We'll I seamed with the scorching argument. Haha. Nothing happened after that. We all have our own stands and we only came up with a mere short reticence. Consequently, we just laughed our heads off.

Then I proceeded to Room 20, my room, rather Jessa, Michelle and Zenny’s room also. Hehe. I immediately jumped on my semi-rough, semi-soft bed and read some peculiar articles on my Candy magazine. (After how many weeks, I’ve found it. It was left on Espeng’s room. Gee.) I felt unsatisfied since boredom is still slaughtering my insides. Then I got my Acer 4715Z, moved to the study area, plugged in the cable and surfed the WWW.

Again, I’m still doing the cliché thing, which is cruising the famous and prominent FRIENDSTER. For heaven’s sake, I couldn’t resist the site. Temptation talaga! Forlornly, I’m still and continuously BORED to the nth level. Hum.. Hum.. I didn’t have my lunch. I didn’t feel like eating. For now, I should take a nap. Maybe this one will be sufficed upon spoiling the dreariness I am dreadfully experiencing. Time check, 2:40 pm. SLEEPING mode. Zzzzzz… :]]

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Musings and Just Musings

2008-07-19T09:29:00.000-07:00

I began the day with a visible wrinkle on my forehead for its CWTS day. Hmmm, I exclaimed to myself that it will be another 4 hours of tedious lectures and dreary discussions. I simply sighed and disappointingly pouted my lips on that very instance. Don’t have any choice, eh? Hmmmff!

Actually, I woke up around 7:35 am and to my dismay, our CWTS class will start on 8:00 am. I immediately rushed to the bathroom and took a quick bath for only 10 minutes. Right after fixing myself, Kabs Jessa and I proceeded to Heaven’s Bliss to have our breakfast. As usual, I ordered beef loaf and egg as my viand. Unfortunately, I left my phone in the dorm thus I ran swiftly back to our room and I couldn’t control my panting. Enormous sweat dropped from my head like the pouring rain.

Fast forward, thank God we’re just in time for the class and the hell; it was already 8:30 am, Filipino time, indeed! Tsk3.. Well, we had our lecture regarding disasters, hazards and the like. Our lecturer was from the Regional Disaster’s Office I assume. We conversed regarding typhoon Frank and the painful devastations it caused. But the best-est thing was our very "COOL", CWTS coordinator Mr Serafin played songs such as Akon’s “Sorry, Put the Blame On Me”, Avril’s “Complicated” and Eminem’s “8-Mile”. It was a big WOW for we student’s didn’t anticipate that he listens to those contemporary mundane songs. However, the real score behind that was he let us reflect on the song’s lyrics w/c have unquestionably profound meanings. Nice strategy, ayt?

The lecture ended and I was somehow relieved. Mind you, Elyssa and I withdrawed our application form as CWTS Team Manager. Reasons? Well, I’ve got 3 other commitments and I’m previously occupied with a range of responsibilities and essential priorities. Enough is enough, I believe.

In the evening, I had my dinner at Omp’s Bar-Resto with my two schoolmate’s: Ate Rhona and Kuya Nels as well as with my DARBZ: Kabz Jes, Nak2 Vinch and Pangkin Laish. Whoohoo, I feasted on grilled chicken. Honestly, it was lusciously delectable. Certainly and still certainly, I enjoyed our diverse chitchats also. I’m totally looking forward that the ASNHians will have a dinner once more. Rather, MORE MORE MORE!!!

After the scrumptious dinner, we headed back to the dorm. One of the incidents that definitely boggled and put ourselves into revulsion is the VIRTUAL TAROT. It’s a website wherein you’ll simply type your query then it’ll answer back. For dang sure, we were in awe and baffled for why on earth will a single website could predict and provide the right answers on our varied questions. WHAT THE HECK! It was only a mere "PRANK".Puzzled why? Haha. Search for the reason dearies, I don’t wanna spill the beans for I might pull something like this on somebody. BEWARE! :)

Uhmmm, SLEEPY mode. Frankly, I was kinda tormented and in raged with what EARL, AIVAN and JOSEPH have done. They were so good on playing the tricks. Perfectly CONVINCING. Summing it up, my day has been good, lots of surprises were in store for me. Lovin’ it! Oh well, I’m inevitably sleepy. So ciao for now dudes and dudettes. Muah! :]]

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Budging Out the Comfort Zone

2008-07-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

“Take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway…”

I could simply discern that this line from Kelly Clarkson’s hit Breakaway is not anymore greek to your ears. In line with that, this song definitely means a lot to me for it served as my wake-up call yet in a reflective sense.

I’m the type of person who’s totally terrified of taking life’s countless risks. Otherwise, I decisively loathe the word “change”. Thus, I can say that I acquire the conventional sort of nature. I just merely love the thought of sticking to the things that I usually do and carrying them out into precision.

Looking down the memory lane, I could still summon up that one of my targets in life is to pass the UPCAT exams and to enter the portals of the newly acclaimed Philippines' National University .Fortunately, I did make it as one of UP Miag-ao’s centennial babies! However, the jovial feeling I had was churned up with woes and hesitation for the certain fact that Iloilo was miles and miles away from my home in Agusan del Sur. That conveys being far away from my family and the place where my heart absolutely fits in.

Still, my pursuit to spend the rest of my life in UP for four years or even more had prevailed. Well, I basically got no other option but to stay in one of the school’s dormitories, Balay Kanlaon. Thus it naturally conveys one absolute thing; I had to start from scratch.

I’ve mentioned that I so hate changes, so at first it was unquestionably hard for me to adjust to the various vicissitudes of dorm life. First and foremost, I couldn’t visualize that I’ll be doing the chores which I do not habitually execute. Washing clothes is the best example I must say. It was not as simple as munching a piece of cake. I don’t have our helpers with me anymore who personally perform the laundry. Frankly speaking, I still dread that fact until now!

Things aren’t that A-OK! I have to do the two B’s, the “buy and budget” thingy! Truly, buying the necessary things and budgeting the allowance given is a slight agony for me. For the first few days, I was really at my wit’s end; I uncontrollably splurged a big amount of money and extravagantly purchased needless stuffs. After a week, I eventually freaked out since I only got a small amount of money left in my wallet! I admit that was terrifyingly ridiculous! Working the two B’s out has never been in my brain since my mom was the one who’s buying the needed items as well as budgeting our daily expenses back home.

On the other hand, “It’s the start of something new,” I exclaimed to myself the moment I was surrounded by unfamiliar persons: my co-dormers. Unsurprisingly, I’m an aloof gal yet I am not a snob! I don’t always have that cheerful “hi and hello” with me. It’s just that, I’m jolted by the reality of socializing which is a must for a college student particularly for freshies like me. I’m exceedingly afraid to take risks and try the huge leaps of faith with regards to making the first move; I’m scared of the word “rejection”. Actually, I want to break the ice and be friendly, yet fear and anxiety are irrefutably swallowing me whole. As a result, it seemed that I felt like missing my old set of friends.

Contrary to all those musings I have regarding the hustle and bustle of the newest chapter in my life, I just muttered to myself, “College may be isn’t all about pressures and dilemmas, how about looking at it’s other side?” Looking at the bright part of college, I supposed that something’s better is in store for me. It’s my freedom!

Gradually, I am currently savoring my first taste of the newfound freedom that I’m currently experiencing. At last nobody’s in control of me! Conversely, I still know my limits, of course. Now, I’m starting to discover life’s naturalness and the splendor of the so-called independence.

College life showed me a plethora of lessons too. I have arrived to the realization that college isn’t only about a vast amount of stress, but also responsibility is cultured within us. In order to not get behind in certain lessons and works, we have to be efficient. We have to ascertain how to manage our time wisely, consequently providing adequate time to finish our home works and extra time to complete demanding and leisure activities.

Furthermore, the best moral that I have attained at this point in time is to skip out from my own comfort zone and to explore life’s brand new boulevards. This is the real life; this is the perfect timing to step out from the shell that encapsulated me over the years.

I am anxious no more of taking the risks! I’ll embrace them as much as I can and find out what lies behind them. I will now thrust myself into a realm of anonymity which entails better and maybe the best opportunities for myself, I suppose. Moreover, I will now welcome mistakes with arms wide open for it will bring me inevitable experiences that are vital to the creation of a healthier and enhanced me.

So far, I am extremely happy as of now! I’ve obtained many, many friends from diverse parts of the archipelago. I’m progressively straying away from the apprehension that I’ve used to believe during those first set of days. Furthermore, I am not a wallflower anymore. I’ll take the probabilities of being in the spotlight and unearth my hidden skills and talents which will serve as my stairs to triumph.

Now I understand life has indeed a range of beautiful possibilities in every corner. All you have to do is to be like the butterfly that will come out of its chrysalis and explore the outside world. Without a doubt, I took the risk, I took the chance, I made a change and most importantly I’m breaking away! #

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*yhan*